Two Weeks Monday (Post 32)

It has been two weeks almost since the surgery to remove my southern BRCA2 parts.  I have been home binge watching Netflix.  This surgery is challenging to heal from.  When I look at the evidence that I had surgery my three incisions and the corresponding bruising looks better each day.  As I outwardly heal I feel like I should be healing the same inside.

It is hard to imagine what the inside damage looks like.  I have been looking at images of before and after hysterectomy pictures. All I can find is cartoon looking pictures.  I imaging where there used to be a uterus there is now just empty space.  What I am not sure of is what exactly is healing, if everything was removed.  I know there is an incision where my cervix used to attach and I know that it is still bleeding two weeks post op. 

What I don’t know is how long that will be unhealed and what I do or do not do to contribute or inhibit healing.  The day I had my surgery I went home by choice because I did not want to stay in the hospital as they had no room for me.  I made the choice to leave and I suppose by proxy to forgoe my post operative instructions.  The Dr. has called several times to check on me.  I keep saying I am ok, but I have nothing to compare to.  I spent all of yesterday on the couch doing nothing and today I am sore.

I also have yet to feel any horrible side effects of having no hormones in my body.  From what I read, the change or side effects can come on suddenly, like immediately.  I am worried about that because if I am being honest, I don’t like surprises, not one bit!!!!