It Really Isn’t That Bad( post 31)

I am post op 3 Days now.  I can shower!  Seems like a crazy thing to be happy about but it is a milestone.  Tuesday I was allowed to take off the gauze from the BRCA2 boobs.  That felt great.  I did take a peak and wow!  They feel so different then the expanders.  The Dr. cut exactly where he said he was going to.  There are no bandages on the boobs just some small stitches.  When I saw the finished product I felt relief.  For the first time since May, I was at peace with my boobs.  

Yesterday I removed the surgical bandages.  I had my son help me because the pain of peeling those bandages off was crazy.  There are 3 small insiscions but the area around each is black and blue and really sore.  My older son asked the younger one why I had those bruises.  He told his brother: that is where they used 3 tiny little robot arms to hunt around for mommies uterus and then take it out the bottom like a 3rd baby.  didn't know what my kids knew about my surgery path, I mean really knew. 

This process didn't just happen to me, it happened to my whole family.  I try to keep that in perspective because it isn't just my journey.  

My sister is on this journey as well.  She has questions and concerns and although we are on the same path to remove destruction from our lives, our journeys are different.  It is important to have someone to talk to and bounce ideas off each other.  I am glad I have her.  I am glad I can show her pictures of my scars and bruises or that she asks me what to do about the nipples.  BRCA2 is a terrible thing and while I would not wish it in anyone, I am thankful that my sister and I are not alone.