The Fill Up (post 25)

Went in for my first fill up today.  I didn't know what to expect.  I knew that the new boobs I took in there with me still felt pretty foreign.  For example, in the middle of the night wile trying to pull up my covers I hit my hand on something.  I didn't realize right away what it was.  What I hit was so hard, I thought the covers were stuck.  At some point when I was conscious just enough, I was reminded, that it was my boob.

When the Dr. came into the Dr on he brought with him this unbelievable sense of calm.  He asked me how I was doing and then how I was.healing.  I asked him questions that I was curious about like will these new boobs always feel so foreign?  Would my muscle always be so tight? I even asked him if I would ever have boob sweat again?  The new boobs do not have cleavage.  He explained that creating cleavage was impossible.  He said messing with muscle over the sternum was a challenge.  He did laugh at the boob sweat question.  He also explained that when the expanders come out and the implants go in it will be much softer but, no I would not have cleavage.

After he numbed my boobs near the port, for which he used a magnet to locate, he explained that he was going to fill them.  He used a 60ml syringe to fill each side.  I glanced over at my husband who was mesmerized by this process.  When he caught my eye I felt like he was hoping a full gallon was going in on each side.  I am certain my face said uhh no! This process was not painful but once full my muscles were very tight. 

I was cleared from that terrible surgical bra so my first stop was a new bra.  Turns out a bra isn't ever going to work on man made boobs but, a bralette or what I like to call boob floss is perfect.  After the purchase of 4 new bralettes, my fuller boobs and I were headed home.  Although he was hesitant, the Dr. cleared me for work on Monday!

That night I was fine and even looked at my fuller set.  The scars were there, they were fuller but the scars were still there!!